Whatever limits us, we call Fate”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
I'd like to believe that I am pertinacious in every aspect in my life, but I am realizing that can be a blessing and a curse. Sometimes, there is a blessing in knowing when to let something go. Such is the case with a decision I was on the fence on about a class.
As you noticed from last week, I was getting overwhelmed by life. Life has been good, but BUSY. So, busy that I was seriously starting to stress myself out.
It was not a good look.
The quote by Emerson is so fitting for me right now. I had to face up to the fact that I had exceeded my limit. But, really the process of discovering that was truly fate.
This summer I started an internship, that I love but is very intense. I had originally signed up for 4 classes and had to find time to defend my publishable paper (still working on that one). One class I dropped because it turned out to be very similar to one I had already taken. Yesterday, I made the decision to drop another. It was an intensive with a sizable workload. Alone, it would have been doable, but in conjunction with everything else, I felt like I was fighting just to stay afloat.
The drop date had passed, but roomie reminded me of another option. So, I emailed my teacher, gave her the skinny, and she agreed to let me do a WP (withdraw passing). Praise Him!!!
Nothing can describe the weight that feels lifted off of my shoulders. At first, I was so hesitant, because it felt like "giving up." But, sometimes there is strength in saying, "I just can't do it right now." Especially if you know you can do it better in the future.
The fate part of the process, was that in having this experience it helped me to settle on a decision that I had been waffling on (whether to stay a full-time student to the finish or to start a job after next year). It made me realize that life is short and quality of life is better than quantity of accomplishments, but a full life includes both.
