The Power of a Name

The simple act of naming something, if done with enough power and authority, can be enough to bring it into existence and make it real." -Frank Shaw


I am estivating in reflection and getting my life to a place that I feel is healthy in multiple arenas (physical, emotional, spiritual, etc.) to prepare for entering my third decade of life in a good place. As a result, I have been turning a critical eye to each of those areas and continuing on the GMLRC.

Lately, I have been thinking about, talking about, and (in some cases) obsessing over this whole concept of naming. Just recently, I told someone, "You name those things that you love." Funnily enough, my roommate echoed those same words earlier tonight (that's how I knew this should be my blog post)!

I took a creative writing class in undergrad. The professor was a poet (that was his writing expertise). We engage in many other forms of creative writing, but we spent a good chunk of time on poetry. I didn't pick the class for this purpose. In fact, I had been writing poetry for a number of years at that point, but only for my own emotional outlet and not really in any stylized way. He helped me to really appreciate written poetry for the art that it was. He also said something to me that has stuck with me. He said, this is a paraphrase, "Not giving a name to a poem is like not naming a child. So much love and labor has been put into its creation, how could you not name it?" Now, obviously this statement carries with it an assumption of planned parenthood [not the organization] or even unplanned parenthood that is the result of two people who love one another coming together in love and passion.

It's the same with poetry, for me. There are those pieces that I labor over. They were a twinkling in my eye and I worked at giving them life. A lot of times, their names would come to me even before the actual poem. [Case in point, I have had the name of a poem titled "When I Wake Up in the Mourning" etched in my mind for a few weeks, but it has only just been conceived. I am still nuturing it to the birthing stages]. On the other end of the spectrum, there are those poems that swell inside me without warning and are birthed onto the page. Neither is less precious to me and all deserve names.

The Bible tells us that there is power in words. How much more when those words form the name of someone/something? We see that clearly in the Bible whether it was the name of people, places, or things, God was very purposeful in what he called something/someone and so were His people. It is a point of validation. It says, I recognize you, you are unique, and I want you to be distinguished amongst everything else. My roomie's parents so loved her that they gave her a name that is Greek for Manifestation of God. Talk about distinguishment!

Yes... you name those things you love, and in doing so, you empower their existence.

Know Your Limits

Whatever limits us, we call Fate”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson


I'd like to believe that I am pertinacious in every aspect in my life, but I am realizing that can be a blessing and a curse. Sometimes, there is a blessing in knowing when to let something go. Such is the case with a decision I was on the fence on about a class.

As you noticed from last week, I was getting overwhelmed by life. Life has been good, but BUSY. So, busy that I was seriously starting to stress myself out.

It was not a good look.

The quote by Emerson is so fitting for me right now. I had to face up to the fact that I had exceeded my limit. But, really the process of discovering that was truly fate.

This summer I started an internship, that I love but is very intense. I had originally signed up for 4 classes and had to find time to defend my publishable paper (still working on that one). One class I dropped because it turned out to be very similar to one I had already taken. Yesterday, I made the decision to drop another. It was an intensive with a sizable workload. Alone, it would have been doable, but in conjunction with everything else, I felt like I was fighting just to stay afloat.

The drop date had passed, but roomie reminded me of another option. So, I emailed my teacher, gave her the skinny, and she agreed to let me do a WP (withdraw passing). Praise Him!!!

Nothing can describe the weight that feels lifted off of my shoulders. At first, I was so hesitant, because it felt like "giving up." But, sometimes there is strength in saying, "I just can't do it right now." Especially if you know you can do it better in the future.

The fate part of the process, was that in having this experience it helped me to settle on a decision that I had been waffling on (whether to stay a full-time student to the finish or to start a job after next year). It made me realize that life is short and quality of life is better than quantity of accomplishments, but a full life includes both.

Authentic Interlude

I really want to post tonight. Not only because I feel a commitment to this blog, because I enjoy the time I spend here crafting and sharing my thoughts with the handful of you that take the time to read my blog.

However, I also know that self-care is important, too. I have been going since 6:50 this morning and have a full day ahead of me tomorrow as well. So, I will try to post in the next couple of days. Tonight, I have to do the healthy thing and get some rest.

Until then, LOVE always.

Refined at 29

“And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.”
-Abraham Lincoln


This was a really low key birthday. I had lunch with a friend. Took a nap. Connected with a few family and friends. That's it. I loved it.

I wrote in my last post that I am looking forward to turning 30 and entering that decade of life. I want to enter it with class. So I am making a few commitments to myself about how I want to spend this final year of my 20's. I am not going enumerate a lot of things, because I haven't worked out all the details. I just know I want to enter the next decade more healthy: emotionally, spiritually, physically, and interpersonally.

I do have a couple of projects I want to work on completing by my next birthday. They are:

30 Photos of Promise

This project will be one where I will take pictures of moments, people, or things that are an "indication of what may be expected (promise - dictionary.com)" in my years to come.

30 Poems for 30 Years

This is pretty self explanatory. I am not sure if they should all have a common theme yet. I'll update if I decide to make this more thematic. More so, it gives me a reasonable accountability for continuing to create in this way.

30 Prayers for 30 People

Throughout the year (30x), I am going to commit to pray very intentionally for a person every day for a week. These 30 may be people I already know or encounters that I may have with random people throughout the year.

I am keeping this post short and sweet. So here's to infusing life into this year!

Run, Ginny, Run

I am taking life in stride these days. It seems to be working well.

I love the internship I am in this summer. I am not working with students directly, but I feel a renewed sense of purpose. I guess it helps to know that what I am doing directly affects students in a meaningful way. I'll take that, for now.

I am still day by day traveling this journey of love and patience. I am realizing that boundaries are a necessary part of the process. While they cannot be too rigid, they must be in place.

Classes start soon and I am looking forward to being more engaged in my coursework. I am really hoping to start research for my dissertation. We'll see.

My birthday is coming up soon, yay (I guess). I have never been a big birthday celebrater, but I feel like I should pay particular attention to this coming one. It will be the finale of this crazy decade. I am so over the 20s and looking forward to my 30s. But, I have one more year until I cross over into the first decade of a series of best decades (i am claiming it)! I feel like I should send this one off with purpose. I haven't decided what to do yet. I have been toying with some ideas (mostly inspired by roomie). I'll do a special birthday post with the decision(s). One of my things, for sure, is a commitment to work against the captious nature of my mind.

One big celebration: I ran today for the first time since the 5K. I don't know what it s about completing a race. Maybe I get in my head that I have "arrived" and I don't need to try any more. #false I am running the Peachtree Road Race in less than a month. I needed to get my butt in gear, but these 90 degree days have made me uninspired. Luckily, with the urging of a friend, I got off the couch and laced up again. I was surprised how much I missed it. So, wish me luck for July 4th!!!

Running tonight was just what I needed to re-energize me. I am reposting a poem I wrote a while ago that seems appropriate to this moment:

REJOINING THE RACE

The race is usually won by the swift
But if you’re too quick
You may just miss
The bliss of the journey


My running shoes are waiting expectantly
Tongues hanging out like dogs cooped up inside too long
They want to go out where they belong
And I am finally ready to fulfill their wishes.

My stride is hesitant, but I soon hasten my pace
Stroll, walk, power walk, jog...
The fog starts to lift as my feet carry me forward
My breath catching as my body powers on.

Unknown companions will their bodies alongside me
And I feel life snaking out from my chest
Spreading heat to my cheeks, hands, thighs
As I look to the skies for inspiration.

Quickening my steps, I throw caution to the wind
Then I sprint, no holds barred toward the finish line
Wind whipping around me in a giant congratulatory hug
Raindrops beating their praise against the gravel

Their collisions clapping to the rhythm of my heart,
A momentary interlude to this
Roller coaster of doubt and accomplishment.

As it intermingles with my sweat
I feel the heaviness dripping off of me
The juxtaposition of salt and water
Washing over a healing wound.

It stings, but not like before
I recognize the faintness of the pain
Propelling me through the rain
Further away from the past
Each step bursting into the future

I feel beckoned there
I don’t know what is ahead, but I know its good.
And I won’t stop until I get there.
© 2010