A titular post (Really, I just wanted an excuse to use the word titular).
I have a very active imagination. In some realms, this serves me greatly. In others, it is one of my greatest detriments. Lately, I have been tetter-tottering on both ends of the imagination spectrum. This quality inspired the title of my blog, as it is often the case that these imaginations are extravagantly impracticable.
Currently, I am having to expostulate with myself about the dangers of letting my imagination run away with me in a couple of different areas; which can be extremely difficult when I get really excited about and/or into something. I am learning to take a step back and examine things before I leap. But, that doesn't stop my foot from twitching.
Pusillanimous People
Sometimes, I just don't get people. I mean I get them, but I don't get them, you know what I mean?
In case you don't, (and I wouldn't blame you) what I mean is this: I can understand from a psychological point of view why people sometimes do the things they do. However, that understanding doesn't cushion me from sometimes being baffled when they actually do it. I guess I can only assume that they KNEW better, but just didn't DO better.
Lately, I have been getting increasingly annoyed at pusillanimous people (of one sort in particular). We all have insecurities, but some people, instead of owning their insecurities, direct them in (sometimes) hateful ways toward others. That irks me so much, especially on those occasions when I am on the receiving end of it.
Don't get me wrong, I have been guilty of beginning to tear someone down in my mind only to realize that that downward spiral of thought is a defense mechanism for my own issues. [Side note: I am not talking about constructive criticism]. It can be really hard to come to terms with those dark places within us, because then we have to deal with them. And dealing with your own stuff can be arduous work. So, I get it. Yet, it doesn't stop me from wanting to say, "Your choice to ignore your issues, doesn't give you license to bring others down with you!"
I guess that's the result of living in a fallen world. Hurt people, hurt people and so the cycle goes. I have come up with a new way of handling people who impose their insecurities in a way that is hurtful to others. I am just going to kill them...
with
kindness.
In case you don't, (and I wouldn't blame you) what I mean is this: I can understand from a psychological point of view why people sometimes do the things they do. However, that understanding doesn't cushion me from sometimes being baffled when they actually do it. I guess I can only assume that they KNEW better, but just didn't DO better.
Lately, I have been getting increasingly annoyed at pusillanimous people (of one sort in particular). We all have insecurities, but some people, instead of owning their insecurities, direct them in (sometimes) hateful ways toward others. That irks me so much, especially on those occasions when I am on the receiving end of it.
Don't get me wrong, I have been guilty of beginning to tear someone down in my mind only to realize that that downward spiral of thought is a defense mechanism for my own issues. [Side note: I am not talking about constructive criticism]. It can be really hard to come to terms with those dark places within us, because then we have to deal with them. And dealing with your own stuff can be arduous work. So, I get it. Yet, it doesn't stop me from wanting to say, "Your choice to ignore your issues, doesn't give you license to bring others down with you!"
I guess that's the result of living in a fallen world. Hurt people, hurt people and so the cycle goes. I have come up with a new way of handling people who impose their insecurities in a way that is hurtful to others. I am just going to kill them...
kindness.
Less Stress, More Chess, Dedicated Poetess
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6: 33-34
Part of my new attitude resolution is to stress less about those things over which I have no control. Come to think about it, even those things I have control over I can strive toward without distress. Plus, how can I be Genial Ginny if I am all stressed out all the time? On a more humorous note: I once opened a speech about stress with the line "Stress stinks. Arrid works!" I know what you are thinking...it was pretty brilliant. Actually, it was met with pin drop silence until one guy in the back of the room let out the most insane laughter I have heard to date. (Nobody else really laughed, but at least that broke the tension). Though, I could have thought through the introductory mechanism better, the speech was fantastic (this I know from feedback I received). There is redemption in everything. I am carrying that with me through this new year, semester, and attitude.
I am grateful that my friend Andre volunteered to teach me how to play chess. My mind understands things best through metaphor and learning chess has been my one of choice lately. Matthew reminds us not to worry about tomorrow because each day has enough trouble of its own. However, that doesn't mean that we cannot think about tomorrow. If I didn't think about tomorrow, I would eat bacon cheeseburgers for every meal. Ummmmmm...bacon. But, I would very much like for my heart not to fail before I am 35! The aliment that I receive today will be what my body responds to tomorrow. Like in chess, I cannot be only concerned on what is going on in the immediate. I have to anticipate the future or I could wind up in serious trouble. Likewise, sometimes, I have to make a sacrifice today in order to get to my desired destination in the future... I can already see that this could become an extra long post so I will stop there for now, but I foresee many such chess analogies in my future, especially when I increase in skill and understanding of the game.
I have started writing again and it feels so good. I have one poem of which I am particularly proud, I just have to finish it. Last weekend, I was invited to this poetry event and it instantly transported me back to that familiar blissful feeling. People never cease to amaze me with the depth of passion, concern, and commitment they bring to the performance floor. I am thinking about starting to perform again. I guess I have to if I am going to get to my goal of inviting my friends to hear me perform. I think only two of my current friends have ever heard me perform poetry. It is so much easier to perform in front of strangers, because I am not as concerned that they like it. Well, I have like 800+ days to work that out! For now, I am rededicating my self to the craft. It is those things that you tend to that grow and I have not nurtured this area of my life in a while.
New Year, New Semester, New Attitude
Know where I'm goin' and I know what to do
I tidied up my point of view
I got a new attitude
In this season of ephemeral New Years Resolutions, I am only committing myself to one in particular. Could I stand to manage my finances better, get in better shape, learn something new, etc., etc.? Sure, but none of that will matter if I don't approach this opportunity to start afresh with what's really important. Patti LaBelle encapsulates my approach to this semester with flair, and this year I will have a new attitude!
An attitude of gratitude is what I would call it if I were a cheesy motivational speaker from the 80s! Maybe I still will (sometimes corniness can't be avoided), because when I am honest with myself I am incredibly blessed. I have (relatively) good health, I am not struggling financially (even in this recession), and God continues to bring people into my life who in encourage me, challenge me, support me, and with whom I can connect in a meaningful way. There are so many more things that I could enumerate, but I'll save that for the post when I complete my 100 things I am grateful for list from the 101 in 1001 plan! Perhaps that will be my next post...
Running hot,
Running cold,
I was running into overload,
That was extreme.
I took it so high, so low, so long,
There was no where to go like a bad dream.
Somehow the wires uncrossed,
The table were turned,
Never knew I had such a lesson to learn.
....
I'm in control,
My worries are few,
'Cause I got [life] like I never knew,
ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo...
I've got a new attitude!
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