So, yeah... I didn't get around to that mid week WotW post. I am proffering it now. (Baby steps).
Thanksgiving break can't come soon enough! I will still have to work on some things, but at least my schedule will be more free to do so. These days I feel like I am treading water. Despite all of that, things are good. I am learning to go with the flow and let some things go (rhyme unintentional).
My mom and I had a really good conversation a few weeks ago, that helped me to begin the process of shedding some long too nursed wounds. I am hoping that it was a major turning point for us and our relationship. I struggle oftentimes with feeling guilty for being so angry with her and realizing that she gave above and beyond what could be expected with what she had to work with. How do you find balance in that? Probably more than any relationship, this one reveals how far I have to go in even coming close to showing the love of God to people. I have thought in frustration more times than I can remember, "How can you call me to love and not equip me to do it!" When really what is going on is, I am willing to obey God's command to love only until a certain level of un-comfortability and sacrifice.
That place of feeling "stuck" has been a major hindrance in my relationship with God. I have felt entitled for so long to receive accolades for the other good things that I do, but continue to nurse a heart full of unforgiveness. Where is the honor in that? So yeah, I hope that I can do better and this encounter with my mom was the push that I needed to get on that track.
Wow, that is not the direction i thought this post would go in, but it needed to be shared. The GMLRC 2011 continues, and the outlook is good. I'll even get to do some Salsa dancing this Friday!!!
